Pengen Pecel Lele

Gak tahu dateng dari mana, tiba2 pengen aja makan pecel lele.. Mungkin kebiasaan waktu kos. Dulu kan tinggal bilang: Mbok, pecel lele 1 porsi, sambele seng akeh + lalapan yo, karo es milo. Biasa kutilang nomer 9, kamar sebelah Evan. Dan si mbok pasti bilang: OK njo, 15 menit yo...
Sekarang aku di Enschede pengen makan lele.. Si mbok di jogja.. ah betapa malang nasibku, kenapa di Enschede ndak ada warung LELE???? Mbok I miss you mbok, dateng dong ke Enschede, buka warung pecel lele.. di jamin laris deh.
Trus setelah pengenku makan pecel lele meledak ledak, aku bilang ke Mer, eh kamu pengen makan pecel lele ndak? Dasar memang si Mer yang ndak pernah sopan kalo sama aku... liat aja ulah si mer:

bener2 gak sopan!!! Ya tapi ga papa lah, perhaps its a good thing... Paling ndak kalo next year things work.. aku bakalan enjoy makan pecel lele berdua.. hahahaha.

Next Year, Baby, Next Year

Next year, what will happen next year? This year just started and I'm already talking about next year :p. Something really interesting happened to me lately. Something that really make me excited yet a bit confusing. Internship period is almost done, everything went well.. I got a job offer so at least I feel a little bit certain I will have a job after I graduate. Good job, good money.
Happened Thursday night here, and Thursday noon somewhere else. With some assurance, some consideration that I have, and some insanity that I always have, I said to her: Lets do it next year!!! :D, we still have 1 year so lets think about it.
Stay tune for what will happen next year.

LOVE

What is LOVE? What kind of word is it? Why people use it a lot? That kind of thought was in my mind lately.. Some people desired to have a TRUE love, some people want a REAL love, some people want a PASSIONATE love. Which one do I want? Which one could I give? Which one does my partner want from me?
What does it takes to LOVE someone? Is it just a feeling that came from nowhere.. (suddenly boom, Cupid fired his arrow).. And I love you? Or is it a feeling that come slowly but sure from knowing each other better, knowing the quality of your partner, the plus and minus side of him/her? Is it LOVE or is it LUST? Do I have passion in my love? Do I want intimacy in my love? Am I ready for a Commitment?
LOVE it self has been an ultimate source of creativity in this world. Most of the paintings, songs, sculptures, scripts, operas, movies, etc, are inspired by love environment. It is inspiring in every situation, when you are totally in love, or even when you are disappointed by love (as some people claim: love hurts).
Some people say LOVE is a complex things.. Which I think it is very wrong. Does love only belongs to educated people? Do you need a bachelor, a master, or even a PhD to understand and feel love? What makes love a complex thing is ourselves, our need behind that love, our understanding over love it self. That's why a people who have PhD will always have more complex love than uneducated person.
For me, I love the passion inside my love, I love the intimacy I could feel with my partner, but for making commitments? I still want to wait and get to know her more than just making a false or fake statement of my commitment. When I commit I want to do it right, perfect for both of us. Word of advice: only fools rush in... And I've been such a fool.

Happy Loving Folks

The Color of My Brain

At work or in school: I need to be "hands on": I like to play games, to compete, and to perform. I enjoy flexibility, changes of pace, and variety. I have difficulty with routine and structure. My favorite subjects are music, art, theatre, and crafts. I often excel in sports. I like solving problems in active ways and negotiating for what I want. I can be direct and like immediate results.

With friends: Planning ahead bores me because I never know what I want to do until the moment arrives. I like to excite my friends with new and different things, places to go, and romantic moments.

With family: I need a lot of space and freedom. I want everyone to have fun. It is hard for me to follow rules, and I feel we should all just enjoy one another.

Yep, thats quite me... nice test. Get your color here!

Starting The New Year

According to wikipedia, The New Year is an event that happens when a Culture celebrates the end of one Year and the beginning of the next. 2005 is gone, 2006 is here.
2005 was quite a year.. A lot of things happened. Some meaningful, unforgettable moments painted the great picture of 2005. Yet I still got the blue element coloring my 2005. Yes, I've still got the blues.. less now but still.
2006 is quite a blank year for me, I really don't know what will happen this year. Some great unforgettable moment already happened quite early this year (last week and this week) :), you lifted me up after some depressing moment of loneliness, changing my crappy new year to a happy new year.
February my internship will end. My friend Ajin will come back to the Netherlands. We have so many things to talk.. I bet he got lots of pinay.
In March some sad moments will come, some friends will leave. Including Tommy... It means that we will miss a great ITC Fellowship leader, a great choir member, a great bass/guitar player, a great partner in my VG, and most of all.. I will miss a great friend...
April I'm turning 22.
May, June, July, end the rest I still dont have any idea what will happen.
What I know for sure is God will walk with me, be my best friend, carry me when I'm tired walking through this year.
So... Lets get this party started!!! Hello 2006, I'm coming to rock your world.