Learning To Love

A sequel to Learning to Live..

Sometimes morning comes too early and nighttime falls too late
Sometimes there is no time for pain, no energy for anger
And sometimes all I want to do is wait

They say, "Life is too short",
And "You're only given one shot"
But could there be more?
Have I lived in love before?

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove what I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try

Once I reached for life
And now I reach for love

I was told there's a miracle for each day that I try
I was told there's a new love that's born for each one that has died
I was told there'd be someone to call on when I feel alone
I was told there'd be someone to call on when I feel afraid

I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove what I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try

Once I reached for life
And now I reach for love

Learning To Live

I look at the world and see no understanding
I'm waiting to find some sense of strength
I'm begging You from the bottom of my heart
to show me understanding

I need to live life
Like some people never will
So find me kindness
Find me beauty
Find me truth
When temptation brings me to my knees
And I lay here drained of strength
Show me kindness
Show me beauty
Show me truth

The way your heart sounds makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats makes all the difference
In learning to live
Here before me is my soul
I'm learning to live
I won't give up till I've no more to give

Another chance to lift my life
Free the sensation in my heart
To ride the wings of dreams into changing horizons
It brings inner peace within my mind,
As I'm lifted from where I've spilt my life
I hear an innocent voice
I hear kindness, beauty and truth

The way your heart sounds
makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats
makes all the difference
In learning to live
Spread before you is your soul
So forever hold the dreams within our hearts
Through nature's inflexible grace
I'm learning to live

Kembalilah

This is a song that I wrote with my Vocal Group while I was still in Yogyakarta. Last month I finally finished the lyric (english lyric still in final progress) with some help from my friend.

Kembalilah     M: Andrew/ L: Andrew, Merlyn

Verse:
Mengapa kau meninggalkan-Ku
Tak tahukah engkau..
Hidupmu sungguh sangat berharga
Dari sgalanya..

Mengapa kau kecewakan-Ku
Tak sadarkah engkau..
Hidupmu sungguh sangat berarti
Dari sgalanya..

Reff:
Kembalilah... <4x>
Dalam pelukan-Ku, dalam dekapan-Ku slalu...
Menunggumu

Please wait for the English translation, still strugling with it.

Music, music, and music

Sometimes I wonder, why my life is always full of music? Why am I always so excited about music? Why am I always want to learn more about music? Is it only me, or a lot of people feel the way I feel about music?
I always think to really change my study to be more serious about music, but the my parent always say "what will you earn as a musician in Indonesia, there is no future in music", and I totaly agree about that, because I know if you don't have any connection in high places you won't get any record label or something.
But after I came to Holland, I felt something different about being a musician. Being a musician is not about a record label, being a musician is not to be worshiped like a star or idols. Being a musician is just simply play the music that you like, satisfy yourself and the people near you with your music, learn more, grow more... Thats what music is all about. Right??
Now, I find myself learning more and more about music... and once again fall in love with it.

Food for the hungry soul...

Finally, after 1 and a 1/2 years I'm in Holland, I really got what I want. Last weekend (pentacost weekend) was the best weekend happend to me in this country.

We (4U band) went to Doordrecht to have a pentacost weekend. When I enter the church building, I didn't really have any special feeling (especially I was really hungry at that time, so thats the only thing I felt). But after the service started and we grabbed our music instrument, things really change... The support from the people... its unbelievable, for the first time in this country I really felt the spirit of God...

Sunday service was the best part... from 11 to 17.30, non stop praise and worship + lectures, and we didn't feel tired at all. Its really amazing when God did his work with people...

So finally, I got my food for my hungry soul...

Personal thanks to Jesus, all the people in 4U (Merlyn, Joe, Rihard and family, Arun, Cobby and Inneke), and of course the United Pentacostal Church in Doordrecth.